2012

Tonight I hold my sweet Brayson thinking back on my year. So much has happened, is a little overwhelming and very emotional. We are so blessed to have our little boys. They are absolute Angels sent from heaven to me and my sweet husband. Three years ago I would never have imagined life would be this amazing. I'm so in love with the man of my dreams. I hold my babies and get kisses and giggles daily. This year my goals are different from what they have been in the past. First, I want to be a good wife to my husband. He deserves the best in this world and I know I can give it to him. I want to over use I love you. I don't ever want a day to go by where he doesn't know how special he is to me. I want to be super mom. I want to figure out fun things to do with Beckham and Brayson. I want to learn how to go out of the house without stressing about little things. I want to sing or read to them every night before bed. I want to be healthier so I can do all of these things for my family. I can't wait to see what this year has in store for me and my family. 

Lessons

Although I'm not quite sure how to write all of my words down, I do know they need to be written. 
Today a little neighbor boy came to my family in tears.  The look on his face showed that his world had been ripped apart. This sweet, innocent little ten year old had just found his mother in her bed who had passed away in her sleep.
I learned a few things through this horrible event. First, be kind to everyone.  This little boy came to my mom for comfort because of how she made him feel. She has a way of making you feel like you are the most important person in the world and every word that you say is like gold.
Don't ever take life for granted.  Listen to others.  Comfort others. 

I'm so thankful for my Mom.  She's amazing.

My dear Baby Jax

It's almost time to go to the hospital and I think I got maybe an hour of sleep.  All I could think about was the fact that I can hold you finally today.
Your dad gave me a beautiful blessing last night. Among many things I was told that you are my little blessing sent straight from Heavenly Father.  You we chosen as mine to take care of, love and cherish. I promise you I will always do just that.
We're scheduled for a 9am c section and it's 6:15 now so I better get out of bed and finish getting ready!
I love you so much. Time to start our adventure!
Mom

Please tell me... Who doesn't love baby bums?

He runs away when I change his diaper so I'm keeping this for black mail someday! Love you Beckham :)
We got new phones yesterday (spontaneously) and I love mine!  The Galaxy Note 2 came out a few days ago and we're one of the first owners. I have to say I love this phone! I feel a little funny talking on it because I'm holding a huge tablet to my ear but don't judge!
6 more days until baby Jax is here.  I have to say now I'm coming to the end of what could be my last pregnancy I'm a little sad.  I don't really remember not having a baby moving around inside me,  I've been expecting for almost a tenth of my life for heavens sake.  I love the feeling when the baby moves. A swift kick to my ribs or bladder is even funny after the pain fades... lol. I'll miss not having to ever suck in my tummy at the pool. It is a neat feeling having my baby be a part of me rather than an extension of me.  I am not ready for this to end,  but on the other hand I am sooo ready to be able to hold my son. 
I'm excited to see how Beckham handles having a baby brother.  Of course he doesn't understand but I'm sure he will love him nonetheless. 
As always, we're loving or life here with our little family!

9 Days Left

It's been a long time since I've blogged, but not a whole lot has gone on.  We've been focusing a lot on eachother and Beckham before Jax gets here and it gets a little chaotic :)
I'm excited to be a mom of two boys.  I've had a lot of anxiety up until this past week.  I think that no matter what, I'll get through it and when it comes right down to it I am the luckiest girl in the world.  I've got a wonderful husband who loves me (yes, we still have movie nights and cuddle!) and two little guys who are all mine! 
Beckham has started pulling himself up lately and walking along the couch a little.  I can't believe he is almost one... it's crazy how fast time goes.  I remember my parents telling me that when I had kids someday time would fly by.  I think I just rolled my eyes at them but how true it is. 
Jax is so ready to come out.  He kicks me all the time trying to get out, I have constant contractions and my back is killing me!  If he's not ready, he better get ready quick cause  I am ready! 
It's funny, I've never had cravings but I cannot get enough walnuts.  YES walnuts!  I eat probably a little package a day (ok... not so little, but not one of the huge ones). 
I'm excited to see my family!  Mom and Trinity are getting here on the fifth and the boys on the tenth. The ninth is Jared's birthday (yay!) and the fourteenth is Beckham's first birthday and my baby brother heads to the MTC for his mission!  I'm so proud of him! 
Again, how blessed am I?  I am THE luckiest. 
<3

Love my hubby!

On Pinterest yesterday (yes, I'm addicted) I found a 30 day marriage challenge!  I love this idea... why can't I try to be a better wife to Jaredevery day?
Day 1 was supposed ask him if there was anything I could help him with that day.  ShaZAM I did it and he said he didn't have anything for me to do... so I cleaned the house while he was on a bike ride.  He noticed :) 
Day 2 (today) is to go a whole day without correcting him.  I think I'm a little hard to be married to sometimes becuase I don't even realize it when i correct him until after I've done it, and most of the time it's little things that don't matter!  How annoying is that?  He doesn't say anything to me, but I find that I'm kicking myself for it every time.  Today I will NOT correct my husband and I'll continue to do my best to not do that. 
P.S. if you talk to Jared and you're reading this PLEASE do not tell him about my little challenge, that would completely defeat the purpose.
Beckham and Jared went out this afternoon so that I could do some homework.  The alone time was nice but the best part was seeing them all happy when they got home.  They love their daddy/son time! 
Brayson has been keeping me up at night with his constant kicking, hiccuping and moving (don't worry buddy, you'll be out of that little space soon!).  It's fun being pregnant, but sometimes it stinks.  Like when your feet and hands get swollen, streach marks, when you're sweating and everyone else is comfortable and just being the size of a whale in general kind of stinks.  I can't wait to have my little Brayson, not have a belly and be able to buy normal clothes!  I have gained a serious amount of poundage over the last two babies and I think I'll be a far cry from ever being 125 again (my pre-Beckham weight) but I think I'll be able to bounce back to a happy weight in a few years months... hopefully.  :)
It looks like our C-Section date is Monday, November 5, but we're going to try and get it moved to November 3 because Jared has school on Tuesday and I know he will not want to leave our little family for the first few days... he's definitely attached to our little boys.  How lucky they are to have such a great daddy! 

RSV... again.

This is time number 3 now!  Poor kid... I feel so bad.  There is ONE good thing that came out of it though- my baby said "Mama" and was talking to me!  He was calling for me! 
Saying prayers for my little boy.

Maryland Trip

Beckham and I were lucky enough to go to Maryland on September 1-13 to spend some time with my family out there!  It was so fun :)  We did so many fun things, including a visit to the pentagon, dinners at my favorite places, dance parties and a trip to the National Zoo! 
When we first got there Beckham was excited (and a little confused) to see his family!  He loved his grandma's braces and snuggled with his grandpa for a good five minutes... if you know this kid you know this is SO out of the ordinary and it was SO cute! 
We loved just hanging out at the house and spent much time dancing, watching Rio, swinging in the hammock, playing on the floor with his aunt and uncles and napping *swoon*.  I was able to take a nap pretty much whenever I wanted and that was pure joy! 
On September 10, Beckham said his first word!  He's babbled "dada" for months now but he actually waved and said "HI!"  It was so cute :) 
On September 11, we went to the Pentagon to visit Dad.  It was so neat going inside.  My favorite part was being in the part of the building where the plane hit.  Right at the impact point there is a room dedicated to those whose lives were lost.
We were definitely sad to go, but we'll see them in November.  There will be so many exciting things happening around that time!!  Our baby will be born, Jared will turn 29, Beckham will turn 1 (!!!!) and my little brother will be off on his mission to Chile! 

Bad Blogger Award goes to...

Me! 
Being a mommy, wife and all around awesome (haha just kidding) is tougher than I thought.  Honestly, a year ago I thought I was going to be super mom with a super awesome blog, cook an amazing meal every night and be able to do my hair every day.  Fail! 
But on the other hand, I was probably thinking I'd only have one baby (no bump), a hubby that was working all of the time and long hair.  Look how blessed I am!  I have TWO babies (hi Beckham and Brayden!  I love you!), a husband that is home all the time and a super easy hair-do :) 
We've got a little less than three months til Jax Brayden will be here!  We're still thinking about Jax, not in love with it... who knows?  Maybe we'll look at him and think he looks like a Jax :) 
Beckham has just started army crawling this week, it's so cute!  And slightly annoying.  It's so much harder getting things out of his reach and he gets frustrated pretty easily.  Lisa said she had a hard time with Emmalee at this age so maybe it's normal. 
I smell a diaper... dooty calls!  More later :)
B

Thankful

Today has given me a few reasons to look at my life and be so grateful. 
When I woke up I got the news of a tragedy that took place in Colorado at a movie theatre.  Many people were killed and injured and I've been in tears watching the news all day.  I'm so thankful for my family and that we're all safe.  My baby boys, husband and our extended family... I can't imagine life without a single person. 
We just moved into our new apartment this past Saturday.  It's exciting seeing our lives change.  Jared is about to graduate and get a job, we're in a new (bigger and better) apartment, we've got a baby boy who we love so much and one on the way!  Two years ago I moved here and that's the best decision I've ever made.  I'm grateful for where life has brought me. 

Baby boy or girl?

Last night I went to sleep thinking I was having a girl... this morning I woke up and it was amazing to me the first thing I thought (almost as a revalation) was "it's a boy".  I knew without a doubt our baby was a boy.  Today we found out we're having a sweet BOY!  Yay :)  My Aunt Megan watched Beckham so Jared and I could experience this together and it was so fun.  Afterwards we went to Baskin Robins for ice cream (what?  The baby wanted it!)  Our name for him was Jay Brantley but now we've fallen in love with Jax Brayden!  My little Jax, I love you!

Dear Baby

Every night before I sleep I think of you. Life is crazy right now and hard to keep up with at times, so I feel like our time together is before bed. You're such a miracle and I'm so lucky to be your mommy. Here in a couple of weeks we'll find out if you're a boy or girl. I hope life for you is as wonderful as can be. Although I hope you're completely healthy no matter what, you are perfect to me. I promise I'll be the best mom I can be. I'll probably get mad when you and Beckham pull all if the toilet paper off tge roll or pour flour all over each other, but I promise to try and laugh and take as many pictures of it as possible. You're the world to us and we love you more than you know.
Love, Mom

Great-Grandma and Great-Grandpa

Some cute pictures from this month :)

It's the Little Things

Today I had Beckham sitting on my lap and leaning back on my tummy and I felt a bubble! At first I thought I made it up in my head but then there it was again, my sweet baby kicking his or her big brother :) That made it real... I'm a mommy of two. I've got another sweet baby on the way. 2 years ago I wouldn't have dreamed I'd be where I am now. I'm so lucky so...

I decided to list the little things in life I'm loving right now.

When Beckham smiles really big you can see his two bottom baby teeth.
Family snuggle time- this is when we all get in our bed and play, snuggle and laugh.
Baby kicks.
Jared letting me take naps.
He still makes me laugh every day by the way...  :)
Cooking, I found a love for it again finally.
Skype with family.
Plan of Salvation... I've thought about it a lot lately because of recent happenings. 
Baby bumps... I've finally embraced my baby bump even though it came 2 weeks before it did with Beckham (and 2 times as big).
Waking up in the morning with Beckham.  Sometimes it's hard, but you will never know how sweet it is to walk into that baby's room.  As soon as he sees my face or hears my voice he gets the biggest smile and kicks his legs with excitement.
Watching Jared feed Beckham.  I love peeking into their relationship.  They look at eachother the whole time and Jared whispers how much he loves his baby boy. 

There's so much more but I definitely don't want to forget these things in particular.

My First Official Mother's Day

What a wonderful Mother's Day!  I woke up this morning at 7 and snuggled Beckham until around 9 and thought about how blessed I am to have my babies and finally be a mommy.  I know I'm only 22 but I have loved my children since I was a child myself.  I always knew I was meant to be a mom.  My first Mother's Day and I have the two most beautiful, wonderful miracles in my life right alongside their daddy. 

My FIRST Easter :)

Slim fast

Gotta looove slim fast! Week 2 and we both feel great and like we've lost weight already. Working out has been fun with jared and beckham.
Baby bean is doing good and morning sickness is gone! Foods I love this time around are slim fast, smoothies, chinese and salads :) healthy huh?
Jared and I went on a date this weekend because Cassie and Taylor offered to watch him! Apparently he was good for them :) we went to Chilies and then to the City Creek Center which, by the way, is amazing!

Hello Mamma!

I LOVE my maternity pictures :) 
Thanks Mandy! Here's a few of my favorites <3

Testimony meeting

Well last Sunday was testimony meeting and those very words terrify me. When I even think about going up there to give my testimony my throat closes up, and I freak out.
Jared challenged me to go up there and bear my testimony but I just couldn't. I thought about it and I haven't done that in over 5 years... My husband hasn't heard my testimony.  How sad is that? My mom used to tell me that angels write our testimonies down when we bear it.
This month, i'm doing it. No more holding back. I'm sitting up front, wearing flat shoes and doing it. I have a testimony and I think it's important that the world hears it... It's not good enough to keep it to myself.
Today is General Conference and I'm watching it with my baby boy. Here he is!

March

This month has been great! I feel like pictures are worth a lot more than words so I'll just tell the story of March in pictures!  A new baby, Vegas, Cali and so much fun, enjoy :) 

March 5, PREGNANT!