November 30, 2011

Well, we're officially 2 1/2 weeks into being parents and we couldn't be happier. 
Thanksgiving made me really think more about how thankful I am for my husband and our baby.  We took a family picture and Beckham even got a little Indian feather to stick on his head. 

Yes... I had Jared coordinate his clothing with ours

Cutest Indian/Turkey Bum in the world!

Our Sweet Baby Boy

I love this sweet boy so much.  I can't believe he is my SON!  I can't imagine life without him... what did we do?! 
I want to write some things down I never want to forget...

Daddy and Beckham cuddling

Jared loves Beckham SO much and just stares at him for hours at a time. 
Beckham puckers his lips and I LOVE kissing them!  He'll probably hate it later, but I love it and always will.
He'll stare at you while he's awake and I always wonder what he's thinking.
I love when he streaches and his little arms go up and his eyes roll in the back of his head. 
The sure fire way to calm him down is to do bench presses with him!  He loves being moved around and rocked, probably because Jared and I were running around the whole pregnancy!
He sleeps 5 hours at a time at night now at just ONE week old!  Crazy!  He'll eat then fall right back to sleep.  It's nice to have some sleep :) 
He doesn't cry unless he needs to be fed, changed (or will need to be changed soon) or burped.  He's so pleasant! 
I love when he sleeps on my chest and cuddles with me!  It's my favorite thing in the world. 
Being cooped up with my sweet husband and our little baby for the past week has been so nice.  I just can't wait to spend the rest of my life and eternity with them and the rest of our babies waiting for us in heaven.  Beckham is so loved and I'm so happy he chose us as his parents.  We keep wondering how he could come to such a horrible, evil world when he's so perfect?!  We'll do everything we can to be good parents and love him and teach him right from wrong. 

Right before the C-Section
Look how cute he looks in there!

A little about how he came into the world...

First Sight

After getting sent home on Friday we went back Sunday, November 13 to the hospital to induce one more time!  I was on pitocin from 8 p.m. to 12 p.m. (16 hours) and still didn't dialate any more so we went ahead and made the decision to go ahead with a C-Section.  I already had an epidural in place so they upped the medicine and took me in to prep.  Once they started the procedure I honestly felt nothing.  No pain, just pressure... which was completely fine, just a little uncomfortable.  When I saw Beckham for the first time I couldn't say anything, I was just so incredibly happy I was all tears.  Finally when I heard his cry it was the sweetest sound I've ever heard.  He was born November 14, 2011 at 1:04 p.m. and was 8 lbs. 9 oz.  When they let me hold him all I remember was looking at his cheeks and his little puckered lips and fell in love. 

First Family Picture

These are the best times of my life.  I will always always always cherish these times with our sweet little boy.  He and Jared are my whole world and I can't imagine life without either one. 

Grandma Johnson

First Bath 11/19/11

Being loved on by new Uncle's and Aunt!

False Alarm

Well Thursday came and went with NO baby!  I was in labor all day starting at about 8am.  UGH I can't even tell you how frustrating that was!  I had no progress in dialation or effacement.  I was having contractions every 1-3 minutes but they weren't very strong.  They decided to try another medicine in pill form that just had to dissolve in my mouth so I took that all night from 9pm-5am every 4 hours and I actually made progress!  Only in softening the cervix, which is way better than the day before.  We were put on pitocin again and lo and behold not enough progress to keep going.  Instead of pushing it we decided to give our little Beckham some more time to come naturally so we're home now until Sunday night.  Sunday we will start pitocin again and the doctor will break my water!  So Monday or Tuesday for sure. 
I loved hearing all of the babies crying and moms cooing.  I was honestly in heaven.  I'll post some pictures when I have time/have the energy to.  I'm still having contractions just not as regular. 

Last Minute Thoughts

Well folks, I am officially 1 day overdue and SO ready to just be a mom.  I definitely still feel good and like I'm human.  I think I have a lot of energy right now as compared to a few weeks ago.  Knowing that he'll be here anytime just makes me happy.
Last Monday, we had a little scare where Beckham's hearbeat was a little too low.  It was really scary and just showed me how much I love him already without even seeing him.  Luckly, everything was fine and we went home a couple of hours later.  Yesterday was my official due date and we set up induction for Thursday morning so that our sweet baby will be here by Friday so that family will be able to see him.  I can't wait!  Only 1 more day after today and we'll start the process.
I have to admit... I am kind of scared.  Being around babies and being a mom is a whole lot different.  When a baby starts crying when I am holding them I go find their mom so she can make their baby feel better.  I can't do that with this baby!  He's mine.  I just hope the Lord will be with me and I'll have lots of support from family to help me out.
Although I am scared I am much more excited and anxious to have him.  I have lots of moments where I think about it and cry and last night was the first time I almost broke down in front of Jared.  I just think about holding him and loving on him.  I'm going to be his mom and one of the only things he loves and knows in the world for a short while.  He's going to want me and cry for me... ME!  He'll want his mommy and that's me. 
I have to admit it is really hard to keep waiting patiently.  I really had hoped he'd be here by now but he is definitely already teaching me lessons I need to learn!  T minus 36 hours :)  I love you baby boy!