Sunday, November 3, 2013

Dear Brayson

Happy birthday, my love!  I sure love you.  I keep thinking about a year ago today.  From about right now actually.  I was so excited to meet you, I couldn't sleep.  When I was on the operating table, your daddy sat right by my head and we talked about what you would look like, how you and Beckham would be best friends and how much we loved you already.  When you came out of my tummy all I could look at were those LIPS!  How perfectly plump they were.  When they placed you in my arms you stopped crying and just looked at me.  I'm so lucky you are my son.  You are growing up (I know, you're only one... but it goes fast) but you are always my baby who I could sing to and make happy.  I wanted your birthday to be special so daddy and I blew up 50 balloons, hung up streamers and decorated your high chair.  You are so special and I love you so much.  Happy birthday baby boy.

Friday, June 21, 2013

3 Legitimate Fears I have... and Why.

So I was looking over a list of 30 things you should tell your kids about yourself and on there was list 3 legitimate fears you have and why.  I don't think this is really that crucial for them to know, but I'll bite. 
Fear 1: The end of the world.  YES I have huge fears when it comes to this.  If you read in the Bible (or look around and smell the roses) you will see that the world is going to get pretty bad and crazy.  I didn't really fear this until I had kids.  After that, Jared and I had "the talk".  The one where you talk about what you would do if something bad were to happen.  I am terrified!  Regardless, I'd do whatever I had to in order to protect my family.
Fear 2: Gaining weight.  SO silly and vain, but it's a fear.  How many old people do you see that are "fit and fab"?  I want to be able to be active and healthy.  You better bet I'm going to be a sassy old gal :)
Fear 3: One of my family members (extended included) needing me and I'm too far away and can't get there.  I've always had this fear.  Since I was 18 I've lived pretty far away from family, and I always worry.  I decided Beckham and Brayson will not be able to be more than 6 hours away from me when they are in college or married.  6 hours is driving distance, and I can floor it and get there in 4!
Love my boys :) 

Crazy Days, Peaceful Nights

As guilty as I feel for saying it, I feel like the title of this post definitely describes our lives right now.  Although I feel guilty, it needs to be put out there.  LIFE is CRAZY.  Screaming, squealing, laughing or crying babies equals a hectic life.  But hey... it's a heck of a lot more fun than it being a family with no kids. 
I am so grateful for my babies.  Honestly, Heavenly Father really loves me for sending me Beckham and Brayson.  They are the sweetest, craziest, funnest (yes, funnest) kids in this world. 

Five things I love about Beckham right now:
1.  He runs down the hall saying, "ma, mom, mom" looking for me
2. He has the cutest smile, and if you don't smile back at him you have no heart.
3. He waves at EVERYONE!  Today we went to Golden Corral with his GGparents and waved at every single person leaving the restaurant.  Wave back, people!
4. He gets a look when he wants you to chase him.  He stares at you, smirks and then scuttles off as fast as his little legs will take him.  And he's dang fast. 
5. He gives kisses!  It melts my heart when he comes up to me and smacks his lips for a kiss.  Hilarious, cute, and he loves me.  :)

Five things I love about Brayson right now:
1. Everyone who meets him calls him the most "smiley baby".  Little do they know, he has some pipes when he doesn't get his way.
2. When we are in the car, he laughs at Beckham and they either do this back and forth the whole time, or squeal the whole time.  Squealing, not so fun when you're in the car for 45 minutes going to visit family.
3. He still lays his head on my chest.  Beckham didn't do that after he was strong enough to lift his head.  I love snuggling my Brayson.
4. When he sees me in the morning, he gets this smile.  I can only explain it by comparing it to those videos you see of parents telling their kids they are going to Disneyland for the first time.  Mouth open, whole face smile, followed by a squeal.
5. He can army crawl now, and it's the cutest thing ever.  When he sees something he wants, he WILL get it no matter how long it takes, or how far he has to go. 

Jared is seriously the best dad ever, too.  He will always take the time to make sure Beckham knows he loves him.  When Beckham wants to be chased, Jared will drop everything and chase him.  The sweetest sound in the world is that, and then later hearing him hum our babies to sleep when they have a bad dream. 
Life is good :)

Friday, April 19, 2013

For my boys: 20 random facts about me

  1. I love running... even though I stink at it.
  2. I change my socks at least twice a day. Clean socks are the best feeling.
  3. I'm in love with Diet Coke.
  4. When my boys go to bed, Jared and I usually go peek in on them before we go to bed. 
  5. I crave walnuts.
  6. Watching Pride and Prejudice while crocheting fixes EVERYTHING.
  7. If I mess up a word when I'm writing in pen, I have to start over if it's only a paragraph or two.
  8. I love doing Math.  As frustrating as it is, there is something about solving a math problem that I really like.
  9. Cooking relaxes me. 
  10. I really did like being the "new girl" in school everytime we moved.
  11. I secretely always wanted to break my arm so I could have a cast.
  12. I always wanted to have braces... until I got them.
  13. When I'm nervous, I bounce.  Even when I am having a conversation.
  14. I really want to get my Masters Degree.  I don't know what in, but someday I want one!
  15. Skydiving is on my bucket list.  Along with visit England, eat caviar and running  a marathon.
  16. I think when my boys get married, I might obsess over their wedding.  I already think about it sometimes.  I'll be THAT Mother-In-Law.
  17. I could eat sushi for every meal.
  18. I think my parents really were right when I was a teenager.  Even though I said that I would never say that.
  19. When I was 7 my mom told me I couldn't ride my bike in the road.  I vowed at that moment that when I had kids, they could ride their bike in the road.  I take it back. 
  20. I think wishing on shooting stars really does work.

Pictures

Daddy loving on his little boy right after they brought him to us.

Missing Beckham but so happy for some quiet time

Mommy and Daddy's anniversary= Cheesecake Factory!

Happy birthday!





My poor, sweet little boy!

Beckham fractured his tibia! 
There... I said it.  I feel like the worst mom ever.  On the 13th, he tripped over my foot and fell on the floor and we heard a pop.  Fractured tibia.  It stinks!  Beckham was such a trooper at the hospital.  He was the cutest one there (obviously) and everyone was drawn to him and loved him.  He got a horseshoe splint (which he hated... it prevented him from crawling) and then we went in on the17th and got a bright green cast, which is MUCH better for crawling. 
He's had such an amazing attitude about this and really doesn't show many signs of pain.  He is such a trooper.  Love you baby!

Life Is...

Can I just take a second and tell the world how much I love my life?  I LOVE my husband, I LOVE my babies, I LOVE where we live, and I LOVE our life we all make together. 
I haven't blogged since I've had my little Brayson (yes, he goes by Brayson) and I wanted to write a little bit about him.  His birth was such an incredible and relaxing experience.  Yes... childbirth was relaxing :)  I had a scheduled C-Section so that meant I was in no labor (pain free?  YAY!) and I got to know exactly when my little boy would be in my arms. 
In the operating room with Beckham, it was stressful and scary because when he came out he wasn't breathing.  I had a lot of anxiety about Brayson not crying when he came out.  Jared was sitting right by my head and we just whispered what we thought he would look like, how much we loved him and how excited we were to have two little boys so close.  I was so scared and Jared didn't leave my side once.  Finally I heard the most amazing sound in the world... he was crying.  Jared and I were both overwhelmed with love for him and all I could say between sobs was "He's crying!"  Doctor Lash and the nurses were probably thinking I was losing it... but they will never know how much relief that brought me.  The first thing about Brayson that I noticed were his lips... OH my heavens his lips were huge!  That is the first thing I did... I kissed him right on the lips and told him how much I love him.  I'm so thankful for that time I got to hold him.  Beckham was rushed away from me after about a minute of holding him.  Brayson I got to hold for about 5 minutes and they were so wonderful. 
The hospital stay was so nice and relaxing.  My nurses were so sweet.  I have a nurse that I always think of and I honestly have a true love for her.  She's seen me at my worst and made me feel amazing still.  She is like a sweet grandma who holds you when you need it, rubs your shoulders when they hurt and does things for you that you don't even want to think about (hehe).  Nurse Sandy will always have a special place in my heart.
The first time I got to see Beckham after, he wasn't really interested in Brayson... how is he supposed to know that that little bundle of baby is going to be his best friend and partner-in-crime?  Holding him and Brayson at the same time was one of the best moments in my life.  Have you ever just felt content?  Like everything in the world is okay?  The man I love so incredibly much was standing at the edge of the bed, my boys were in my arms and I think the only word that comes close to explaining how I feel is "complete".
Coming home was so much easier than I expected.  Beckham went home with his Grandma Johnson for the night, Brayson woke up only once that night (and never more than twice on the nights following), and even when Beckham came home it was easier than anyone would imagine.  I think Heavenly Father knew how scared I was, but how I had faith he would help me.  My sweet friend Krissie told me that if I try my best to be the best mom I can be, Heavenly Father will do the rest.  I really believe that. 
Here we are, five months later, and life is just wonderful.  Sure, we have our times that both boys are screaming, I have a messy house and I'm about to break down, but those times don't really stand out to me.  Here are things that stand out.  Snuggling with them at night, feeding them their bottles.  Beckham kissing Brayson and trying to give him his binky.  Brayson laughing at Beckham splashing in the tub. 
Life. Is. Wonderful.