November 30, 2011

Well, we're officially 2 1/2 weeks into being parents and we couldn't be happier. 
Thanksgiving made me really think more about how thankful I am for my husband and our baby.  We took a family picture and Beckham even got a little Indian feather to stick on his head. 

Yes... I had Jared coordinate his clothing with ours

Cutest Indian/Turkey Bum in the world!

Our Sweet Baby Boy

I love this sweet boy so much.  I can't believe he is my SON!  I can't imagine life without him... what did we do?! 
I want to write some things down I never want to forget...

Daddy and Beckham cuddling

Jared loves Beckham SO much and just stares at him for hours at a time. 
Beckham puckers his lips and I LOVE kissing them!  He'll probably hate it later, but I love it and always will.
He'll stare at you while he's awake and I always wonder what he's thinking.
I love when he streaches and his little arms go up and his eyes roll in the back of his head. 
The sure fire way to calm him down is to do bench presses with him!  He loves being moved around and rocked, probably because Jared and I were running around the whole pregnancy!
He sleeps 5 hours at a time at night now at just ONE week old!  Crazy!  He'll eat then fall right back to sleep.  It's nice to have some sleep :) 
He doesn't cry unless he needs to be fed, changed (or will need to be changed soon) or burped.  He's so pleasant! 
I love when he sleeps on my chest and cuddles with me!  It's my favorite thing in the world. 
Being cooped up with my sweet husband and our little baby for the past week has been so nice.  I just can't wait to spend the rest of my life and eternity with them and the rest of our babies waiting for us in heaven.  Beckham is so loved and I'm so happy he chose us as his parents.  We keep wondering how he could come to such a horrible, evil world when he's so perfect?!  We'll do everything we can to be good parents and love him and teach him right from wrong. 

Right before the C-Section
Look how cute he looks in there!

A little about how he came into the world...

First Sight

After getting sent home on Friday we went back Sunday, November 13 to the hospital to induce one more time!  I was on pitocin from 8 p.m. to 12 p.m. (16 hours) and still didn't dialate any more so we went ahead and made the decision to go ahead with a C-Section.  I already had an epidural in place so they upped the medicine and took me in to prep.  Once they started the procedure I honestly felt nothing.  No pain, just pressure... which was completely fine, just a little uncomfortable.  When I saw Beckham for the first time I couldn't say anything, I was just so incredibly happy I was all tears.  Finally when I heard his cry it was the sweetest sound I've ever heard.  He was born November 14, 2011 at 1:04 p.m. and was 8 lbs. 9 oz.  When they let me hold him all I remember was looking at his cheeks and his little puckered lips and fell in love. 

First Family Picture

These are the best times of my life.  I will always always always cherish these times with our sweet little boy.  He and Jared are my whole world and I can't imagine life without either one. 

Grandma Johnson

First Bath 11/19/11

Being loved on by new Uncle's and Aunt!

False Alarm

Well Thursday came and went with NO baby!  I was in labor all day starting at about 8am.  UGH I can't even tell you how frustrating that was!  I had no progress in dialation or effacement.  I was having contractions every 1-3 minutes but they weren't very strong.  They decided to try another medicine in pill form that just had to dissolve in my mouth so I took that all night from 9pm-5am every 4 hours and I actually made progress!  Only in softening the cervix, which is way better than the day before.  We were put on pitocin again and lo and behold not enough progress to keep going.  Instead of pushing it we decided to give our little Beckham some more time to come naturally so we're home now until Sunday night.  Sunday we will start pitocin again and the doctor will break my water!  So Monday or Tuesday for sure. 
I loved hearing all of the babies crying and moms cooing.  I was honestly in heaven.  I'll post some pictures when I have time/have the energy to.  I'm still having contractions just not as regular. 

Last Minute Thoughts

Well folks, I am officially 1 day overdue and SO ready to just be a mom.  I definitely still feel good and like I'm human.  I think I have a lot of energy right now as compared to a few weeks ago.  Knowing that he'll be here anytime just makes me happy.
Last Monday, we had a little scare where Beckham's hearbeat was a little too low.  It was really scary and just showed me how much I love him already without even seeing him.  Luckly, everything was fine and we went home a couple of hours later.  Yesterday was my official due date and we set up induction for Thursday morning so that our sweet baby will be here by Friday so that family will be able to see him.  I can't wait!  Only 1 more day after today and we'll start the process.
I have to admit... I am kind of scared.  Being around babies and being a mom is a whole lot different.  When a baby starts crying when I am holding them I go find their mom so she can make their baby feel better.  I can't do that with this baby!  He's mine.  I just hope the Lord will be with me and I'll have lots of support from family to help me out.
Although I am scared I am much more excited and anxious to have him.  I have lots of moments where I think about it and cry and last night was the first time I almost broke down in front of Jared.  I just think about holding him and loving on him.  I'm going to be his mom and one of the only things he loves and knows in the world for a short while.  He's going to want me and cry for me... ME!  He'll want his mommy and that's me. 
I have to admit it is really hard to keep waiting patiently.  I really had hoped he'd be here by now but he is definitely already teaching me lessons I need to learn!  T minus 36 hours :)  I love you baby boy!

12 Days and Counting

12 days...
Am I ready?  It brings me to tears thinking about how my baby will be here at any time now.  I've always heard that when you're in that childbirth room that is the closest you get to heaven while you're on earth.  I've played the moment when I will see him for the first time over in my head countless times.  Will I cry or laugh? 

I can't wait to be a mom.  I've had so many great examples in my life I can look to for help and advice.  I hope I'll be like my mom eventually.  I'm so happy I get the chance to raise a baby.  The anticipation is killing me... when will it happen? 

Let's be honest about the last month of pregnancy.  My feet get swollen to the point where you can't recognize them.  My wedding ring doesn't fit... which is really sad because that is the one thing I was hoping to avoid not fitting.  My back hurts and there are aches and pains you don't even want to know about!  I cry all the time from these emotional ups and downs.  It's kind of embarrassing but Jared has been really good about just understanding when I need him to just hold me.  I can't sleep much because of aches not to mention those 2-3 potty breaks I have to take and when I can sleep, I snore... yuck!  I feel really chubby and haven't been able to see my feet standing up in probably 3 months or so.

Despite all these "woes" it is definitely worth it.  Sometimes you just have to vent about how you feel :) 

Beckham, I love you and we can't wait to have you here with us FINALLY!  I have been waiting for you patiently but I don't now how much longer I can wait!  Hopefully you'll come next week.  The doctor said you are about 7-1/2 lbs. now so we'll see how big you are when you're born! 

The Pregnancy Laziness is Present

Lately I've been SO not wanting to post anything.  I just feel fat and like I need to watch movies and eat food.  I really need to get out of this rut dang it! 
I am 35 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow!  Lately I've been having a lot of cramping and I have to be honest, I was pretty worried about it.  I keep thinking "OH my heck I'm in labor" but I know I'm not.  The Doc says everything is fine and cramping is normal cause of the streaching.
I have to admit that I'm really nervous about actually going into labor.  I've heard so many horror stories (by the way, never tell a pregnant woman about your horror birth story... it's not very encouraging) and I'm not good with pain.  YES I am going with an epidural, I definitely want one.  I feel like if there is something that will help you with the pain, take it. 
I'm getting very anxious as well.  I almost feel like I've had him before and I'm not waiting to meet him... I'm really missing him.  Does that make sense?  I can't wait to hold him and just bond.  I'm so excited that he's going to want ME,  I'm his mom.  Moms are comforting and no matter what they love you with everything they have.  I know when I got hurt when I was little all I wanted was my mom and I'm so happy I get the chance to be that for my little Beckham.  I already love him so much, I can't even imagine what it's going to be like to see him for the first time.  I've played it over and over in my head so much. 
Dad came home about 3 weeks ago for a couple of weeks!!!  It was so much fun.  We all felt complete again.  It's weird when someone in our family is away from the rest... it just doesn't feel right.   When we are all together it's perfect, and I wouldn't want it any other way.  Anyways, the visit was full of many fun things... dinner at The Roof, Mary Poppins, the Bountiful Temple, Park City, a fun family baby shower and movies.  My favorite part was when we all just sat down at Grandma and Grandpa Thurgood's house and hung out.  We listened to songs, did the cha-cha slide, watched Beckham's ultrasound, ate GOOD mexican food (thanks Mom!) and watched movies together.  We miss him so much.  Hopefully the next 3 months go really super fast so we are all together again soon. 

After dinner at The Roof

Baby bump vs. full belly bump ;)

Park City!

Mary Poppins

Baby Shower!

School is still going good.  Not much exciting to tell, other than we are almost halfway through this semester lol.
This weekend was General Conference for the LDS church, it was so neat to watch.  I love listening to the speakers and thinking about how it relates to me.  It's amazing to me that there is a living Prophet and we get to listen to him every 6 months!  I love it.
Also this weekend was a U game vs. Washington that was pretty embarrassing, so we will end this post right here.  :)
<3 Britton

Someone loves me

Right now laying in bed sick the only thing I can think about is how grateful I am.

Usually our sunday routine is the same... Get up for church, fight each other over the mirror to do our hair and brush our teeth (with similar tactics we saw on the utah and byu games last night), get church clothes on and go to church for the 3 hour block. Today wasnt much different until we were sitting in church.
All of the sudden, nausia hit and I ran out of the chapel. My body started going into panic and all I could feel was the pain of my whole body clenching. I was freezing while others were hot and couldn't make myself go back into the chapel. Terror overcame me as I thought about how this might affect (or effect?) my little baby.
Long story short, we went to my grandparents and I went straight to a warm bed. Now here we are an hour and a half later and I'm still in that same position.

My sweet husband was trying to keep me warm when finally my parents came home. Immediately as I saw my dad I asked him and Jared for the greatest gift anyone could receive. I asked for the one thing I know could give me relief at that moment as long as I was strong enough to believe it would. I asked for a priesthood blessing.

All I really wanted to say is that 10 minutes after that blessing I feel a million times better. My body has stopped clenching, the shaking has stopped and I feel an undescribable feeling of gratitude.

I'm grateful for my wonderful husband and dad for being worthy of giving me such a blessing. I'm grateful for everything in my life that led me to have a strong faith in the church and everything about it. Most of all I'm thankful for my Heavenly Father who gave the power of acting in his name on this earth. I'm thankful He loves me and has let me know that many, many times. 

Now moms making her amazing enchiladas and I get to enjoy them and the company of my family while my dad is home :)