12 Days and Counting

12 days...
Am I ready?  It brings me to tears thinking about how my baby will be here at any time now.  I've always heard that when you're in that childbirth room that is the closest you get to heaven while you're on earth.  I've played the moment when I will see him for the first time over in my head countless times.  Will I cry or laugh? 

I can't wait to be a mom.  I've had so many great examples in my life I can look to for help and advice.  I hope I'll be like my mom eventually.  I'm so happy I get the chance to raise a baby.  The anticipation is killing me... when will it happen? 

Let's be honest about the last month of pregnancy.  My feet get swollen to the point where you can't recognize them.  My wedding ring doesn't fit... which is really sad because that is the one thing I was hoping to avoid not fitting.  My back hurts and there are aches and pains you don't even want to know about!  I cry all the time from these emotional ups and downs.  It's kind of embarrassing but Jared has been really good about just understanding when I need him to just hold me.  I can't sleep much because of aches not to mention those 2-3 potty breaks I have to take and when I can sleep, I snore... yuck!  I feel really chubby and haven't been able to see my feet standing up in probably 3 months or so.

Despite all these "woes" it is definitely worth it.  Sometimes you just have to vent about how you feel :) 

Beckham, I love you and we can't wait to have you here with us FINALLY!  I have been waiting for you patiently but I don't now how much longer I can wait!  Hopefully you'll come next week.  The doctor said you are about 7-1/2 lbs. now so we'll see how big you are when you're born! 

The Pregnancy Laziness is Present

Lately I've been SO not wanting to post anything.  I just feel fat and like I need to watch movies and eat food.  I really need to get out of this rut dang it! 
I am 35 weeks pregnant as of tomorrow!  Lately I've been having a lot of cramping and I have to be honest, I was pretty worried about it.  I keep thinking "OH my heck I'm in labor" but I know I'm not.  The Doc says everything is fine and cramping is normal cause of the streaching.
I have to admit that I'm really nervous about actually going into labor.  I've heard so many horror stories (by the way, never tell a pregnant woman about your horror birth story... it's not very encouraging) and I'm not good with pain.  YES I am going with an epidural, I definitely want one.  I feel like if there is something that will help you with the pain, take it. 
I'm getting very anxious as well.  I almost feel like I've had him before and I'm not waiting to meet him... I'm really missing him.  Does that make sense?  I can't wait to hold him and just bond.  I'm so excited that he's going to want ME,  I'm his mom.  Moms are comforting and no matter what they love you with everything they have.  I know when I got hurt when I was little all I wanted was my mom and I'm so happy I get the chance to be that for my little Beckham.  I already love him so much, I can't even imagine what it's going to be like to see him for the first time.  I've played it over and over in my head so much. 
Dad came home about 3 weeks ago for a couple of weeks!!!  It was so much fun.  We all felt complete again.  It's weird when someone in our family is away from the rest... it just doesn't feel right.   When we are all together it's perfect, and I wouldn't want it any other way.  Anyways, the visit was full of many fun things... dinner at The Roof, Mary Poppins, the Bountiful Temple, Park City, a fun family baby shower and movies.  My favorite part was when we all just sat down at Grandma and Grandpa Thurgood's house and hung out.  We listened to songs, did the cha-cha slide, watched Beckham's ultrasound, ate GOOD mexican food (thanks Mom!) and watched movies together.  We miss him so much.  Hopefully the next 3 months go really super fast so we are all together again soon. 

After dinner at The Roof

Baby bump vs. full belly bump ;)

Park City!

Mary Poppins

Baby Shower!

School is still going good.  Not much exciting to tell, other than we are almost halfway through this semester lol.
This weekend was General Conference for the LDS church, it was so neat to watch.  I love listening to the speakers and thinking about how it relates to me.  It's amazing to me that there is a living Prophet and we get to listen to him every 6 months!  I love it.
Also this weekend was a U game vs. Washington that was pretty embarrassing, so we will end this post right here.  :)
<3 Britton